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I need to pay more attention to my diabetes. I ignore it. Eat what I shouldn’t, don’t bolus, and just continue on with what ever until I feel crappy. I know it’s not good for me in the long run, but I just miss life before it.
Me too…. -_-‘
I’m so upset with myself right now I want to scream. Earlier this morning I took a bath and put my pump on suspend. Well, I was so tired I laid back down and fell asleep….without resuming my pump… I woke up with a blood sugar of mid 200’s. I immediately resumed my pump and bolused. My whole day has been completely fucked up. I think I’ve been below 200, hmm twice? I’ve checked my blood sugar at least 20 times… I’ve even dosed myself with my humalog pen. UUGGHHHHHHH. It hasn’t gone above 300 though, which I’m thankful for, but this is getting ridiculous. I JUST WANT TO EAT I’M FUCKING STARVING. THESE ARE THE DAYS I HATE MY DISEASE SO MUCH I WANT TO JUMP OFF A FUCKING BRIDGE….
I’m so frustrated with the way my life is going right now. I pray to God this good news I’m supposed to get tomorrow is going to turn me down the right path and where I need to be. I was so proud of my blood sugars the other day…now I’m severely depressed over it. The one I love is running away from me, I feel hated and alone. I really hope something betters turns out in all of this. I just can’t take it anymore….